We got really deep, I was running out of data, so I asked for his number, he gave me and I called ''Omg!! His voice sounded like a smile.'' you must be wondering how a smile sounds right? I can't explain it myself, but I know a smile is cute, his voice was sensational and babyish, I went out of thinking and asked if he's gay, he laughed and said no, I said even if you are, will you tell? We both laughed out loud. I had something to do and wanted to get off the call, he promised to call which he did.
The conversation got deeper, we exchanged questions, and questions newly met people always ask ‘‘tell me about yourself.'' I've always hated that question but when he asked I didn't think twice, I was replying as fast as I could, he told me about himself too, and of course when a girl sees a cute guy, her first question is ''do you have a girlfriend?'' he didn't say no, he said ''it's complicated.'' I wasn't really interested in what happened, without asking, he told me about it and it was indeed a bad experience, he said he can't see himself talking to her again, knowing what a heart break feels like, I started begging him to forgive her and get her back.
Weeks passed and I was still begging on her behalf, I was already feeling something for him. I just don't want to enter into him deeply because he was heartbroken, I wanted him to be happy, so I kept pestering him just for one beautiful morning,even though i don't mean it, while doing my usual disturbance, he asked ''why do you keep pushing me back to her, don't you love me?'' I've never been stunned by a question like that before, I didn't want to hurt myself, I wanted to be truthful but I held it back, to distract that question, I told him about my heartbreak, he laughed and said ''I guess that makes the two of us.'' the amazing thing about this man is that he takes life easy, he doesn't rush neither does he force on things, after telling him about my past, he didn't act like how other guys will act by saying ''that's so sad, I'm sorry about that'', the next thing he said was ''I love you'' I didn't know what to say, I said I love him too. after saying that, fear gripped me, I wasn't scared because I said I love him.
I was scared because I don't want to fall victim of heart break again, the fear my ex-boyfriend kept in me was still in me, my ex was very heart hardened, he never apologizes whenever I complain about what he does that I don't like, rather he will either cut the call or walk out on me, he never respected me, we could be together and he will leave me standing to go talk to another lady, he broke up with me at every slightest mistake, if I'm not lost of count, he broke up with me 5times and still I always wanted him back, I don't know why it always had to be him but I guess it was because I never had time for any other guy, I never cheated on him for the 3years I was with him. You might be wondering if that was possible '' me not cheating on him for three good years''. Well I didn't, I was the faithful one per say in the relationship.
This guy made me feel special and important, I mean my new fantasy*winks* and most importantly, he made me feel something that every girl always feel towards a guy they are romantically involved with,and that feeling brings trust. Well! I will tell you what that is in the next story.
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****please stay in tuned to read the concluding part of this story and always feel free to leave a comment....muah!***
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